How long has it been?

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It’s been 3 months since the last time I post something on this very blog. And yes, I decided to change the domain from my own name to this stupid little acronym which apparently confuses everyone. It’s been very confusing for me as well to be honest. I don’t know what’s going on with my life but apparently everything started to falling apart since a month ago.

I don’t even know if I can still survive another day to be honest. I’m on the current state of mind where everything feels hopeless and useless. Even if someone says they do care, feels kind of bullshit at this point since it only came out as a sentence which most of the time means nothing and doesn’t really changing anything other than giving this fragile person a false hope.

I know, another stupid rants about life when I’m feeling down. But hey, what am I supposed to do? I literally don’t have anyone comfortable enough to talk about these things. All I can do is to write it down and just… I don’t know. I can’t expect anything anymore. Even a thing called ‘hope’ doesn’t really mean that much for me anymore.

But hey, at least I can still stream my stupidity on twitch.tv for god knows how long time I have left 🙂 I know that I’m not the most entertaining person on the earth, most of the time I’m just a douchebag who can shit on everyone. But at least, it’s the real me and I’m not pretending to be someone else.



2 responses to “How long has it been?”

  1. Nad Avatar

    Heeeey, where have you been? Long time no see, anyway. Lama banget aku nggak lihat tulisanmu!

    Kelihatannya sedang tidak baik-baik saja ya? Tapi kayaknya aku nggak punya hak buat tahu about what’s happening—tapi kalau kamu mau cerita dan butuh tong sampah untuk mengeluh, you can tell me, aku akan berterima kasih untuk itu.

    Well, kalau kamu lagi ada di titik terendah, aku cuma mau bilang:
    Aku nggak tahu sih masalah apa yang kamu alami, but you’re doing good. Kamu udah ngelakuin yang terbaik sampai titik ini. Terima kasih sudah melewati kesulitan itu dengan kuat. Semoga kamu makin kuat dan kuat lagi sampai nggak ada satu pun hal di dunia ini yang bisa menjatuhkanmu. Cheer up!

  2. B Avatar
    B

    Hope you’re having better days now since the time you posted this. I know it’s hard sometimes, and most of the times life just kinda sucks, but there are people around you that’s willing to chat or just chill with so you can get some sadness off. Things will not get easier, life only gets stressful day by day, but hopefully you find the strength to get up from bed, take your breakfast, BRUSH your teeth, maybe a quick shower, play and stream valorant and maybe along these mundane tasks you find something to inspire you and make you want to wake up the next day.

    When life gets tough, we get tougher!

    Congratulations on your affiliates. See, that’s something to celebrate 🙂

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