Every year, I made a website. A blog, to be exact. There has never really been a consistency in myself, especially in dealing with things like this. Somehow, it does not work for me. I love change. But for this one thing, sometimes I do it as a whole. Imagine how much writing I can collect if I’m consistent right from the 4th grade of elementary school until now. Really unimaginable.
But what i’m saying is that I’m not a PewDiePie kind of person who has always been consistent with his videos until now becomes the number 1 Youtuber, or perhaps Mark Zuckerberg who is serious about his passion and now famous for his social media work. All my fantasies seem to perish every day, slowly eroded by time.
Either way, does this time last longer? I do not know. But at least, this time I will say that time will not decide what will happen. For just this time, I hope, I’m the one who decides. This does not apply only to small things like my own website. But also, my old character. I really want to change. Again. And again. Just keep on, to the point where I feel enough, and can say that ‘This is me’.
I do not know how long it will take. One thing is certain, it will not stop, before the angel of death takes my life. Maybe I’ll keep changing. Become better, or vice versa. Who knows? But really! This time, let me decide.
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