It’s Feb 2019, and somehow this blog is still alive. I feel like this is the most long-lasting personal blog that i ever made since the last time when i was on junior high school.
There’s nothing much going on, just like what usually i would do on daily basis : surviving. I remember that when it was the end of 2018, i was thinking and setting my goal for 2019 which was pretty simple : be more organized and try to increase my income.
But then again, here i am wandering somewhere just to get a thing to eat. I’m not really sure what makes everything harder every time, but i’m pretty sure right now i’m not really in a good shape. I’ve been through some dilemma of my own, battling my own thoughts inside my head.
It feels like i’ve been through a war zone every time i woke up from sleep. I feel so disoriented lately, i don’t know what’s it to do with mid-life crisis, but i’m definitely confused sometime. I didn’t make right calls when i had to, but i don’t really put any regret either.
I’m surviving from monthly basis to daily basis. I was planning to go home and get some fresh air but keep cancelling that idea. Maybe i feel too proud to go home at this point. Luckily, somehow i’m still manage to keep my idea at least for where i’m working with right now.