It’s been days since the internet at my office has been down. Well, not entirely down, but barely usable. I’ve been dealing with endless RTOs and pings over 2000ms. I’ve spent hours staring at blank pages because of it. There’s not much I can do since my work heavily depends on the internet. While others solve this problem by using their personal mobile data, I can’t do the same—I don’t have data on my phone. Heck, I barely have enough fuel for my bike.
It frustrates me so much because there’s important work I need to get done, but the universe just won’t let me. Eventually, I gave in and tried to do what I could, even if it meant working at a pace 1000 times slower than usual. After all that ‘patience,’ the workday finally ended, and I could head home. Thankfully, the internet at home is much better (I have Wi-Fi), and I was able to finish in a few hours what I couldn’t during the entire day.
There’s a billion things swirling around in my head, but I’m doing my best to keep it together. My family has a history of overthinking to the point where it could literally kill you. I feel it sometimes—the constant headaches that hit hard whenever I’m stressed.
I used to have things I could do to unwind, but lately, I don’t have the time or energy. Furthermore, I’m always exhausted when I get home, and I’m tired of being tired all the time. I just want to end this cycle, to pull myself together, and take back control of my life.
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